On 'The Eve'
2005.05.18 1:39

As I wrote in my Info page, this journal is totally dedicated to one woman. I wrote 'The Eve' at the age of 17 before I met her, actually she was 2 years junior to me in our high school, at the time I wrote my novel, I was the 'second' first grade student. (I took 4 years to graduate high school. So I did the first grade twice. I experienced a total nerve breakdown at my first first grade, then I took three months leave from the normal course, that automatically had me enroll the first grade twice.) I met her when I was the second grade student, sequently she was in her first grade though I was two years older than she.
So this novel was written under the completely different situations than those of the rest of the novels that I wrote thereafter.
There is a woman behind any fruits that I bore.
The woman behind the creation of 'The Eve' is the same age as me. She had been an object of my deep love and admiration just as many people around her was till I found the next target of love -a woman this journal is dedicated to.
Time passed. Both of two women got married to other guys. Of course I am not sure whether they are happy now. Because there would be a huge chasm between their internal fact and their external fact, though they seemed to get married to a prosperous guy, that's another story.
I am not satisfied with a current situation now I am facing. I have long been suffered from what I am now and what I ought to be. But basically that feeling is true of any slashdotters as well. We'll never be satisfied with what we are, therefore we can go ahead.