Behemoth From The Past
2005.07.05 3:20

Sometimes I've gotta visitor from the past. She knocked at the door in front of my mind, but I don't let her come in, I wouldn't and I won't let her come in. I cannot allow her to let me in. Simply it is similar to that I cannot return to my high school days any more.
I spent with her the very high teens for four full years, I will be waiting for a reply from her. That's never likely to occur. Even if I let her know, she won't reply to me. She would be keeping on the third person -onlooker to us. Forever.
Therefore my trek continues. I shall return from the journey in the past.
I was too exhausted to see Eri - my love in the last Friday. I shall see her definetely on Friday night this week in order not to grow the behemoth of my past too.