Time to Come
2005.05.24 15:00

Tonight I will have relatively longer hours to have access to the computer. I've got many things to catch up with. See you soon.
#How to give her a satisfaction
I totally agree with you. We seek for pleasure if we are only one by doing so by myself but if we are with someone together we have sex with the one. I totally agree with you. How to make her feel near perfect satisfaction is the most important thing. I just extremely concentrate on letting her feel near satisfaction. It is not still too late for me to come long after she comes.
The essence of having sex is how deep we male can have her feel deeper satisfation. We all are facing extremely severe reality in everyday life -I'm working more than 60 hours in a week. It is necessary to let us feel sexual satisfaction as deep as possible to keep our life sane.
#Virginity
My latest girlfriend was Ugandan. She was 32 and apparently she was not a virgin. They say men prefer young girls. Young girls tend to have not enough experiences. Sequently some might be a virgin. So?
Personally speaking virginity has nothing to do with my relationship with my girlfriend. If our encounter was the first, both of us are virgin to one another.
#Half a century
but I am also sad. I had always pictured us as one of those 50-year anniversary couples in the newspaper. -johndiii
I think it's your unfalsiable feeling, If I were you I would change fifteen times.
#Re:Virginity
I've never been to her country though she told me that one of her houses is located near Entebbe along Lake Victoria, the land itself is located in highland so the temparature must be moderate.
Sure she is from a country where one of worst places in Africa that contaminated in HIV. I think there are wide chasm between the rich and the poor. I am not admitting those chasms though, as a matter of fact she's educated in Canada and working as a teacher for two years here, both of us are matured couple. That's why I am wanting to have our kids. So depends on individual cases, as a whole, the country must be poor and unhealthy. That said, I mind her apparent lack of experience in sex. Regardless whether we are chaste, we ought to learn how to satisfy our partner. I seriously think so.#Sexual Preference
Homophobia?
I prefer using the term misanthrope instead.
#Prodigy
At age 6, I read one chapter of Genesis, Chronicle of Japan, Record of Ancient Affairs(Both are Japanese version of Genesis) At age 10 -4th grade in a primary school, I finished reading one of the main Chinese literatures - The Water Margin. At age 12, I was always a top scorerer in any test. I was able to solve the math test for 18 years old at age 15. But since I was 14, people started not understanding me any more. Since then I have gotten accustomed to not being understood by anyone except few. One thing I ought to write down is I got a prize from the National Agency of Science & Technology at age 14 for my scientific invention and I showed myself in a public broadcasting TV. It was in 1974. At the age of 15 I must say I was very famous in local area. At age 16, I published my first thesis on poesy, that brought me an extreme fame. I published my first novel at age 17, and second at age 19, both brought me also an extreme fame. At age 20, abruptly I hid myself from the public scene and decided to lead a life in hide. At age 20, I started learning English by myself. Roughly speaking, for more than twenty years, I never published any works. And one more. I am a extremely well caligrapher. Throughout my academic years, I always took the first prize in all caligraphy contests.
#Just Say No to Dependency
My former love -roughly five years ago, made it a rule to take a sleeping-pill every night. Thanks to that I was able to do whatever I want on her body. Although those were amazing experiences, she often asked me 'You are really interested in having fun with a woman whose conscious is away?'. In order to have a subjective way of enjoying our lives, it is important to be a master of ourselves. At any time.
#Re:Just Say No to Dependency
Two out of few my former girlfriends smoked. Every time they did, I insisted they should quit. Actually I don't smoke. I didn't like to see them smoking in my presence. Every time I insisted so, their reply was strikingly similar - they smoke because I was annoying them, I was the one who made them frustrated at least for them. In her case above mentioned too. Though it was not me that made her take sleeping-pills. Owing to twenty year long unhappy marriage to her ex-husband, she had just been unable to get rid of her dependencies to drugs, tabacco, kitchen-drinking. You must have some causes to resorting to drugs. It is urgently needed to know the cause and get rid of it. For my part, I put up with anything. I do whatever I want. Thanks to that, I don't have dependency.
#Original Sin
I carry a tremendous amount of guilt with me. My comment might be a litle bit beside the point, I am much older, different gender, different people. Strangely enough if we started counting differences, we might not have even one common. However we started counting similarities, also we've got countless similarities. Every outcome is a direct result from a cause. I can understand English very well because I learned a lot since younger days. I've got to work much harder than the people who's age is almost the same, because I was unable to put up with staying in one job. (I changed my job more than 15 times, and still I tend to change. I am always a newbie in any job and that makes me harder worker than others..) There's no reason for anything. My lack of perseverances made what I am now. Nothing can be done without paying costly sacrifice. I just feel how great I got and how stupid I was at work. Oh,o..I was about to forget to say thanks to your mentioning my name at the head of your JE. Welcome and keep on being a friend. I'm afraid your feeling of flaw is from our original sin the same one I feel.
#Behemoth
Hah hah, now it's my turn to tell you my real story. It was still 12 one day in summer suddenly when I struck by a catalepsy at night just before I was going to sleep. I was unable to do anything, just waiting for it's ceasing. Since the night my hell of catalepsy at night started. I must say I had it more than 700 times for two years from age 12 to 14, at most frequent I was suffered from it more than four times in one night. I was about to be overcome by this behemoth since I was too young to know how to fight with it. Every night I was suffered from it and seemed no escape to be found but one day I decided, I decided to fight with this behemoth, daemon, monster. At that time I was too smart for anyone to understand me including teachers. I was able to solve maths for 18 year lebel at age of 15. I wrote what any adults unable to write in thesis. I thought I must have the power to get over...One day I decided to fight with this daemon by myself. I was already suffered from catalepsy for more than 200 times, I was completely exhausted at that time. As was always the nights I had had those days I trapped by a strong catalepsy, then for the first time I decided to try to concentrate all my energy on how to handle with this behemoth. Unbelievably enough I was able to handle with this behemoth for the first time in my life. It was at age 14. Since then battle against this seemed uncontrolable behemoth started. Every night when I was trapped by this behemoth, I fought against it with all my strength, I was unable to handle with this behemoth for the first time but as the times go by, I was able to handle with this behemoth by degrees, then it was already at age 15 when I was able to handle with this behemoth completely. At age 15 people called me a poet. My suggestion is everything you encounter is you, so it's up to you whether you can handle with them. Fight!
#Huhu..Not at all.
I fought not only this behemoth but also many stronger ones than this. I would like to speak out about others if I had a chance.
This is a writer's destiny to speak out.
And in a sense, we can be so bold to speak out in the Internet.
#Simile
Since you've been creating such beautiful proses, you will find lots of comments trapped by the charms of your website till you opened your pages again.
As if its beautiful spiderweb caught many bugs while you are away.
#This Is a Serious Problem
We are surrounded by many media, -TV, movies, online games, porns. In our fantasy, we are sometimes a king of all creatures. I don't like to mention many but in our imagination we can do whatever we want. On the other hands, reality is different. Lots of restrictions are in front of us and we just take it for granted that the reality is different from imagination. We normal people always can differ reality from imagination but there are some not many though who are unable to tell reality from imagination. This is beyond the limit of what is normal but unfortunately God creates those who are unable to tell these differences. See, many media are open to not only normal people but also those who are not normal. So all the media should have a self-restriction on the limit of freedom of expression so that abnormal people cannot be affected by bad contents the media have. It is sad for us to see those media restricted but this is a limitaton of the freedom of expression. Freedom of expression -inevitably it is allowable within a limit of social acceptance.