Pregnancy Test
2005.07.14 23:40

Last night I went to see her. I went to her room at 11:00 p.m. on time. I was waiting in front of the entrance of her appartment house, then she appeared from the road after fifteen minutes.
I brought a pregnancy test for her, but she seemed to be embarassing to use it in front of me so this time she just kept it and she said she's going to use it when I am away.
For the first time we had sex my wearing condom because she repeatedly refused to have sex with me without my wearing condom.
As might be the same as other men, I don't like to wear condom. You see, as I've been told her to have sex with wearing condom is a proof our having sex is just play, if we are serious enough, we might not wear a condom.
She rigidly refused to have it without a protection, so finally I wear it. She seemed so good but for my part, I felt much less than not wearing a condom. Beside I felt like I would invite a neurosis through exercising this -wearing condom. I was so frustrated.
I tried to get accustomed to have sex wearing a condom simply because she wanted me to, but believe me if she were pregnant I have no need to wear a protection. If she had babies for us, we would like to marry her. If she chose not to, I would liquidate our relationship any more. Pregnancy is for women it is a life event. I understand the feeling she had last night.