Having Date & Insemination II
2005.07.15 11:25

Last night I must have been very tired. I could manage to stay up late one night, staying up two consecutive night is really hard. This time I didn't stay up late but combined sleeping hours count just seven hours (three hours at office in previous night and four hours in her room the following night ).
On the 14th of August, 2003, in the very night we met we slept together. I hesitated to inseminate while we were one because I was unable to give her a total, unquestionable trust -can she truely be my future wife?
Normally it would be hard to feel such a total credit over somebody's character in the very night we met, but in my case it is oftentimes crutial to be able to determine whether the one is suitable simply because I've got extremely scarece oppotunity to encounter such a nice girl in any occasion given.
Because I failed to make up my mind in its very precious oppotunity once in a blue moon in my life time, which caused her further misunderstanding - my intention might not have been a serious one, the night we fell in love might have been a mistake, fling, as a result of infatuation at best, she kept on refusing to see me for six months - I just kept on writig to her about ten times through email, I kept on being unable to get her reply slightly before the 14th of February, 2004 - the St. Valentine's Day when many love and lovers are eager to have date with -.
Now another precious moment appeared in my life -this time I've got to make up my mind in time of being one.